the shack

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I finally finished reading The Shack. I really enjoyed it and am not sure why I put it down for a month and a half. Anyway, I highly recommend it. Especially if you’re someone who, like me, is a big fan of God but not of Religion.  Written by Wm. Paul Young, it contains little pearls of wisdom.  I did a lot of underlining. I think I’ll post a quote every now and then. I had a hard time choosing one to start with, but finally settled on this one:

“The will to power and independence has become so ubiquitous that it is now considered normal….It is the human paradigm…so prevalent that it goes unseen and unquestioned. It is the matrix; a diabolical scheme in which you are hopelessly trapped even while completely unaware of its existence.”

belated

o'bamaoh, yeah! i have a blog….

I know it’s 2 days late and I made a video about it, but i’m not through with St. Patrick’s Day yet. That day I watched Good Morning America as usual. Diane Sawyer brought up the fact that Obama is Irish. As if she could hear chuckling across the country, she said something like, “No really. Through his mother’s lineage…” That’s kinda how I always felt as a kid. Like, I know everyone’s a little Irish today, but I’m REALLY Irish everyday. You just don’t see it.

 

Also, I really love St. Patrick’s prayer. I used to say it every morning. Not when I was a kid, but like 4 or 5 years ago. Here it is…

 

I arise today
Through God’s strength to pilot me;
God’s might to uphold me,
God’s wisdom to guide me,
God’s eye to look before me,
God’s ear to hear me,
God’s word to speak for me,
God’s hand to guard me,
God’s way to lie before me,
God’s shield to protect me,
God’s hosts to save me
Afar and anear,
Alone or in a mulitude.

Christ shield me today
Against wounding
Christ with me, Christ before me, Christ behind me,
Christ in me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ on my right, Christ on my left,
Christ when I lie down, Christ when I sit down,
Christ in the heart of everyone who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks of me,
Christ in the eye that sees me,
Christ in the ear that hears me.

I arise today
Through the mighty strength
Of the Lord of creation.

 

 

That’s the part I used to say anyway. There’s more depending on the version you’re reading.

2009

After another long absence I have returned to wordpress. No apologies this time. I just wasn’t ready til now. I’ve realized that I don’t have a vision for this blog. Anyone have any ideas? I know that I don’t want to be tied down to race issues. I know that I don’t want it to be a dumping ground for the ideas I end up editing out of videos. Maybe I shouldn’t be calling it mulatto diaries….

Well, it’s been 2009 for one week now. It was off to kind of a rough start for me.  Apparently I threw away my December paycheck. I discovered this on New Year’s Eve and have been pretty concerned and very upset with myself since then. Talk about irresponsible! Or just a scatterbrained holiday preparation stress kind of mistake. Damn!  I actually can’t believe I’m even writing that on here.  The beginnings of the year are always a bit stressful for me financially it seems. As a freelancer I never know what a new year will bring in terms of work (that actually pays the bills). So to have thrown this check away ( I really think that’s what happened) just adds a bit more worry.  My motto for 2009, tho, is “Faith, not Fear!” They really cannot share the same space in I have learned. So I’m trying to look at this as a test of my faith and a test of my fear. I’m also going to be focusing on gratitude and being good to myself. And seeing the glass as full! Not even half full. I’m a positive person, but I’ve noticed that I focus on lack a lot. More than one roommate I’ve had over the years has marveled at how I always think there’s not enough of something (usually in the fridge i.e. milk, oj, butter) and rush to replace said item before it runs out. It’s like “There’s plenty of milk, Tiff. You just don’t know it.” What else is there plenty of  yet the plethora escapes me, I wonder…

it is written

When one doesn’t remember how to log in and add a new entry, they have clearly neglected their blog for WAY too long! Sorry if anyone’s been disappointed by my absence. I figure it’s the holidays and all, so I’m hoping it’s forgivable if it’s even been noticed. And I know a couple of people have nophoto-85ticed. Thanks for the gentle prodding. I’m still visiting my family for the holidays and it’s always so hectic. In a good way, I guess. So many people to see, things to do, etc. On the other hand I always feel like I’m disappointing someone every single second that I’m here because I can only be so many places at one time. Anyway, I just watched Slumdog Millionaire and I simply loved it! Please go see it, if you haven’t already.  It is so beautiful (in a gritty, painful way), and inspiring. I actually was a contestant on “millionaire” quite a few years ago. Seeing that set and hearing that music always elevates my heart rate a bit, so at times this movie really had me on the edge of my seat. It also left me full of faith and gratitude and awe. It reassured me that all of the things that I’ve been through that were less than pleasant (downright painful some of them-but nothing like Jamal’s), and all of those that I have yet to face, are leading me to my destiny. “It is written.”  It is written that I be born biracial. That my black mother and white father divorced and I began to see things in black or white. It is written that I witness the joys and the sorrows of both of these worlds and have come to realize without a doubt that we’re all cut from the same cloth, so to speak, and that the things “they” tell us to keep us separate are illusions of this world.  That I find the pursuit of banishing them (the illusions meant to separate, not the people perpetuating them for that is just a habit they learned) to the nothingness from whence they came to be my deepest passion and most fulfilling endeavor must be written. I never looked ahead and saw this chapter coming. I had no idea. But it is written.

 

 

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